I sometimes get the feeling of being in the wrong place, like right now. There are no people like me, with the same tribe, compassion, and mission. Nobody who cares about building a healthy mind and body, nobody who believes in themselves, has a mission in life, or wants to do things out of compassion and for the right reasons. I search for people who have confidence, values, and shine—shine with what they believe in and have a positive and progressive mindset. And no, everything doesn’t and shouldn’t be positive all the time. It simply isn’t. Life has ups and downs, and that’s alright. But it also should not be negative all the time.
Why is everyone complaining so much? Why concentrate on everything that could go wrong? Why predict something you can’t predict? Why can’t we just live in the present? We can’t change what has happened, and we can’t predict the future either. So everything we can change is right now, so let’s focus on what we can do right now, in the present. It is good to reflect and have some goals and things to do, but I believe that it’s healthier and more efficient to mainly concentrate on the present than repeatedly wasting time thinking about scenarios over and over again.
I want to settle. I want to be fulfilled in my environment. Fulfilled with the right people, fulfilled through doing the things I love. I want to share my knowledge and learn new things all the time. I want to move my body and do the sports I love. I want the feeling of importance. I want people who I can love and who love me. I want to live the life I want.
I think the questions I have to ask myself are: Am I expressing my passion? Am I showing who I am? Do people see me as I see myself? Am I expressing the person I want people to see? And the people I want to attract into my life? Am I just pretending to be this perfect human to myself that I’m really not? Maybe I don’t want to have this personality. But who do I want to be, and how does this person look?
Maybe I just need to trust that everything is as it’s meant to be. What is even in my power? And what’s not? Maybe I should just stick to what feels right to me?! Or should I be logical and realistic? What is even logical and realistic? I think everything is possible if you really want it! I mean, we’re all just humans. Everything is just in my head. What’s even real about my version… my thoughts…? I think I am on the right path!
